Food Rush dealmedan 2015

Hey guys! I want to join this food rush deal medan 2015. It is just like games, involving food of course (sort of like running man), which is held by dealmedan annually.

The problem is, not everyone can join this. We need to do stuff like voting.
So, nice people out there, mind to vote for me? ;)
It's simple. Just open www.dealmedan.com/foodrush/stage2 and vote number #36. Yes, you need to sign up or log in, but i promise it is very easy.

it's quite important for me and my friends. We would really appreciate your help. Thankyou so much, we love you <3

Infinite Wound

“ Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form." - Rumi

I like the quote but then i don't really like the meanings within.

So, this is the thing. Frankly, I've been missing my dad these past few days. You know, when you cried, the memories just climbed back and left me thinking back of other people that i've lost too - my aunts. They've gone long but the pain, it's just like i've just lost them again. I really do miss them so much

if i can wish for one thing, i really wish i could turn back time, to the time when i still have them, and i will stop the time there. I don't want to go forward. I just want them, i don't want anything else. I don't want any forms of substitutions. I've lost many people in my life, it makes me learn the word 'fear' - fear of losing.

People might know me as a happy person, but the truth is you'll never be completely happy if you've ever lost some people that you love so much. You'll never be 100% happy if you've ever lost your family.

“ You will lose someone you can’t live
without,and your heart will be badly
broken, and the bad news is that you
never completely get over the loss of
your beloved. But this is also the good
news. They live forever in your broken
heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you
come through. It’s like having a broken
leg that never heals perfectly—that still
hurts when the weather gets cold, but
you learn to dance with the limp."
Anne Lamott

Note to Myself

Okay, things are pretty awful lately, but it's normal right? People always have ups and downs in their life. It's just a matter of time when we realize we have to let go the things and people that make you sad. It'll be hard to let go of them at first, but then there's no point in holding them back. What for? To make them have a chance to make you sad again?

I know they are people who are important in your life, people who can make you laugh. They can make you happy, but they can make you sad too. If me, i choose not to take them in my life. I prefer to have my life flat :) no ups no downs since I really cannot handle the downs pretty well.

For sure i won't be with the person who thinks i am low :) I need somebody who can see the perfect in my imperfection, the one who trusts me completely, the one who thinks i am really worthy, values me so much and the one who never treats me like a scumbag.

and i am gonna slap my face if i still hold on to people who make me sad. I will get rid of them. Note that.