Infinite Wound

“ Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form." - Rumi

I like the quote but then i don't really like the meanings within.

So, this is the thing. Frankly, I've been missing my dad these past few days. You know, when you cried, the memories just climbed back and left me thinking back of other people that i've lost too - my aunts. They've gone long but the pain, it's just like i've just lost them again. I really do miss them so much

if i can wish for one thing, i really wish i could turn back time, to the time when i still have them, and i will stop the time there. I don't want to go forward. I just want them, i don't want anything else. I don't want any forms of substitutions. I've lost many people in my life, it makes me learn the word 'fear' - fear of losing.

People might know me as a happy person, but the truth is you'll never be completely happy if you've ever lost some people that you love so much. You'll never be 100% happy if you've ever lost your family.

“ You will lose someone you can’t live
without,and your heart will be badly
broken, and the bad news is that you
never completely get over the loss of
your beloved. But this is also the good
news. They live forever in your broken
heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you
come through. It’s like having a broken
leg that never heals perfectly—that still
hurts when the weather gets cold, but
you learn to dance with the limp."
Anne Lamott